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I told you not to believe in me... [22 Mar 2006|08:44pm] I've recently realized I've been starring out of 5th and 4th floor story windows...it makes me happy to be around the people I love but not in the way ive been enjoying their company...supervised and medicated is not a way of life...im at one or the other never have a day off...frankly i dont need a day off I just need to see some smiles and fun being had...I cant wait till the day i dont see sick people surrounding me everyday after school...or people in wheelchairs chasing me around...i stare out these windows only to realize i get to leave...and these people well these people have to stay...i wake up at night thinking about those i love lying in bed secluded and alone...I never want to be alone In a year i get to leave this one horse town and go away to college...i get to put my past behind me and start over...exciting right...NOT! very scarey, this is a test of life this is make it or break it time this is buckle down and prove myself time...Im willing and ready to take on this task.... In a couple months i will be taking a test that could determine the rest of my life...a test that is held at such high stakes it takes months to prepare for...a test that is so hard i try to think of ways to die during it... In a few days ill be surrounded by the people i care about...and the people that care about me...In a few days fun will be in fact had....in a few days i get to forget everything serious in my life and lay back and relax...In a few days....I GET TO SEE MY FRIENDS TOGETHER not 2 by 2s In a FEW days....I get to have some freaking FUN This is probably one of the worst most stressful years of my life...I have never had soo much pressure in school...Ive never been soo torn apart at home...Ive never had soo much on my plate that i couldnt handle...yeah alright everyone is or has gone through it...but everyone goes through it differently and im not embracing it well anymore ....Dont Let Me Front Im Not As Strong As You May Think.... When summer's over will we dream of spring?

you told me that it would last forever and when you held my hand i knew that it was now or never </3 [29 Jan 2006|08:07pm] What if the beach wasnt beautiful anymore....I was sitting at AC Moore today and i realized there are probably 100000000x pictures of the beach...why...beacuse its "tranquil" "serene" "quiet" "warm" ect. it kinda made me mad but made me think at the same time...why cant where we live be that great to people why cant we enjoy who we are where we are...why do we need get aways to enjoy life I pretty much live life to the fullest and i can honestly say that I love being me and I love being here but not for what Altoona is for who the people are... Its home where everyone wants to be and wants to fit in its home where its familiar its home where we dont get lost and where everyone knows you...so im pretty much saying love it for what it is cause someday youll miss it...just as much as people miss the beach on the cold wintery nights When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Rocks Tonic Juice....Magic [09 Oct 2005|09:33pm] I have been thinking. I am not entirely useless but yet there is still this part of me that is completely useless. I have fun on the weekends i am never bored my friends always rock me like nuts and i love music and it helps me through a lot of my life...ok so here it goes the worst part of my life...I dont have a dream... i mean yeah sure i want to grow up and have money and maybe get married i dont even know about that if i that is even a dream of mine yet...being single has pretty much made my life and i kinda love it...but i dont wnat to be on stage and sing and i dont wnat to play an instrument and i dont wnat to make it big in the city...yeah i would love to be a comedian but to do that you have to have good jokes i can jsut make stuff up as i go i cant just tell jokes...im not a shy person i jsut dont wnat to be any of that...I need to have a dream i need to have something to work for and to be excited about...Im tired of having to have to excell at school because thats what im "good" at when in reality i hate it i dont like doing any of it i hate reading i hate listeing to teachers talk i hate the whole experience i cant sit for more than an hour and i cant piss when i want too...if i fuck up in one class i am fucked my whole life i have worked hard at school and im just tired of it nothing comes easy to me anymore and my talents are all screwed up...ive been thinking soooo hard about what i want to do yeah i guess my dream is it be a pharmacist but there is soooo much work involved im kinda nervious to even think about it...3 things i would love to do in my life 1.open a night club (i have parties every weekend as it is why the fuck not) 2.own an old trans am that i can fix up and drive 3.never lose my friends and live with them the rest of my life When summer's over will we dream of spring?

I want to know how it feels to be useful... [11 Sep 2005|10:19pm] WOW...Ive come to a realization that my friends are the greatest people in the world...I mean they are with me alll the time and its so great every saturday we still all get together and it feels so great to just have that sense of security that I finally fit in somewhere in my own group that we all go to each other for...i love the fact that we call each other when we need help no matter what time it is and we help as much as we can <3 i love everyone for giving me this sense of security...This realization came to me in a weird form though...I was down at the show at the lions den and just talking to everyone there that i know and having a good time when this girl i have never seen before my entire life i guess shes from tyrone came up to me and was like "you are the coolest girl i know you are soo awesome all of your friends are great and its soo awesome how you have all these guy friends with you all the time" she was truely right i do have awesome friends I mean i would sit here and list them all from A to Z but i dont feel like it...just because everyone means something different to me its crazy how incredibly close ive become to the people that come to my house to hang out There are the group of Jenny's house whores and then there are Aliah and I Jenny's house never get anything... Its fine with me for now i mean im just happy everyone still comes to my house to hang out and just to have fun and the new people that have been comming are great and keep comming because you are always welcome <3 i love you all I just love the fact that i can still get excited about the upcomming weekend and know that it isnt going to be boring <333 Keep it Real <33 ___ (02) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Let me Be the one to show you... [05 Sep 2005|10:29pm] WOW! No one might realize how hard it is to just switch rooms but it is for me...its sad i got in my new room and i love it i really do love it a lot its huge i can like bang on my floor now and move around and have a party in there...but i miss my little cozy room and i miss all the memories in that room...I have to find all the condoms in my room before my parents start going through shit and cleaning my room...ohh well...I had saturday this saturday not as big as normal but nice... it was nice ian me and aliah had an underwear party before everyone got there <33 it was cute we painted my new room for a while then we watched shaun of the dead?? not impressed but ok...I am very depressed ive never been so depressed about school my entire life but i am now...i think its because it is crunch time this is live or die this is the time when i have to do good if i do not do good it will ruin the rest of my life...i wont make it im soo scared...im taking it one day at a time and putting my priorities in line...welll i have to go to brandons early in the morning to do his hair...and go to school not excited at all but it should be a good time... ___ (01) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Make out kids never had the chance to be best friends :'( [30 Aug 2005|10:52pm] A round of applause goes out to the first day of school...had a great day im in CLIP with all of my bitches <333 ahh i love them aliah nikki tina its going to be an awesome year...first period i told my teacher a story that made him sit down hahah it was priceless...2nd period i fell in love <33...3rd period my teacher called me vertically challenged and made a big deal because she sat me in the back of the class...4th period nothing happened 4th period just math...5th period i had to piss really bad so it sucked 6th period i had to barf...and then after that i had to write february (in french) on the board which nikki made me feel stupid...learn sign language so i dont get your "R" and "C" mixed up hahah but it was fun...7th period well lets just say thats going to be a trip...im excited for drivers ed and to get rid of law and citizenship because that just fucks up my life completely...Well i still have to go back to school tomorrow and theres like 179 days left...well october 12 i take the PSATs and sometime this year i have to conquare the PSSAs...soo not impressed with 11th grade...but itll have to do ___ (01) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

At least pretend you didnt wanna get caught [28 Aug 2005|02:55pm] Well here it goes...my update of the summer...in two days i will be entering the halls once again of AAHS A.K.A. the hell hole of all hell holes...this summer i would have to say was a blast I went to Canada and Warped Tour and of course an awesome day was spent in Bedford <33 I was surrounded by the greatest people in the world this summer and i met some pretty cool people too im going to say auvoir to this summer and hope and pray that next summer and the many summers after this to come are all going to be as great as this one was <3 I might of had like 3 boring days but thats about it...I mean i didnt fall in love or anything great like that this summer but my friends pretty much rocked my world this summer Here goes my third year of French not my final year though...my 11th year of english math history science and gym and of course my first year of micro...i really do not wanna do it this year i dont want to go i dont want this to end i love how it stays bright until like 9 at night and how i can sleep outside everynight and not freeze my ass off and how my friends stay here alll the time and watching movies and staying out late nights partying...but i guess its time to crack down and study and get some school spirit...maybe this will be the year that i care...maybe i will study and not worry so much about whats going on around me i just dont know yet All i know is that i hate the fact that when i pull saran wrap out of the package it like all bunches up and i cant pull it apart...it makes me sad then it get stuck to my fingers and it just pisses me off well im done i guess ill see yall in 2 days :( YOU LOOK SO GOOD IN BLUE <333 ___ (02) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Ohh Please Tell Me That Youre Alright [30 Jul 2005|03:11pm] Nikki and I went to Canada. It was beautiful but it feels good to be home at the same time...even though i had a great time. It was really tireing and I was just glad to get to sleep in my own bed...I miss the falls and the secret garden and the 4D movies and all the wax museums...I miss shopping there too it was great...i didnt take that many pictures cause i hate carrying a camera so nikki took a lot Well im going to go and get ready and go driving with my dad <3 and then hang out with some cool kids later <33 When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Ask me what its like to have myself so figured out... [27 Jul 2005|02:19am] Alright its 2:19AM and im not going to bed because im going to CANADA in like 2 hours and im sooooooo excited and im so fucking tired...:( i just wanna sleep but i cant Nikki is behind me she best not fall asleep hahah were pulling an all nighter i think we can dooo itttt We played KEMPS today it was soooo funn i love it!!! <33 AHHHH I think im going to sleeeppppp When summer's over will we dream of spring?

All I have to say is I love the greatest hits of JoUrNeY <333 [20 Jul 2005|09:42pm] I went to the Drive Inns with my lovess <333 it was a great time and we ate CiCi's nothing beats cheap ass pizza biatches <3 well could of been better if i had the munchies ;) Jenny Dunn was not impressed with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory :'( blew ass HATED HERBIE!!!! fell asleep during it dont waste your money <--- i didnt waste money cause i hid in the bed of JT's truck with maura <33 it was a good time I woke up today and made JT Nikki Maura and Jimmy french toast <33 it was cool i got to sleep in and then i woke up everyone it was cute... Today i got to go see The Geiner family <3 they are soo cute Tomorrow is the WING OFF!! <33 thats something exciting to do CANADA IN 7 DAYSSSS <3333 ___ (03) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Ive been having an awesome time <33 [19 Jul 2005|12:33pm] Wow Im really hungry and there is like nothing to eat at my house...and no one here surprise surprise...well my mom did give me 15 dollars today but i dont feel like getting dressed and going somewhere...my dad is fishing and so i cant drive the truck kinda pissed off... Granted i mean i could chug a bottle of ketchup since we only have 3 bottles or the 10 gallon bottle of wine or the 6 pack of Genny <3 or eat the pounds of cheese my mom buys for the damn dog...I think i might just starve Im going to the movies today to see charlie in the chocolate factory I have many <3's for Timmmmm Burtonnnnn hes my loverrrr Fuck Johnny Depp he isnt even hott Hahaha saturday i had the best party i think since the Birthday Bash '04 i missed everyone i love summer now im soo happy <3 we all had a really awesome time I mean who wouldnt have fun giving the hottest kid Carter a Mohawk <3 awe im so in love with him haha My soul mate Nick was here <3 i love him too and brandon there were soo many peoeple here all day just comming in and out i dont remember who all was here but i love you all <33 great time I got to go see my gram i love her we took her out crazy bread and man did she go crazyyy hahah shes nuts not even kidding I got to go to Devins and see Belle my beautiful belle Belle means beutiful in French B.T.W. haha nikki made the worst joke of all time by saying belle has a bell on her neck blew ass but we laughed and then kicked her around for about an hour about it haha Im going to Canada soon im soo excited you have no idea i love Canada and Canadian boys <33 they are soo cute and nice haha i cant wait to see some friends ive been making up there haha getting pictures done adn what not with my lover im soo excited to be going with you i love you <333 Well today started out my mom and i sat here and listened to Tonic, Styx, Metallica, Godsmack, and Greenday...she likes that new greenday shit i hate it but whatever i guess Im going to go get ready for the movies soooo exciteddd <333 P.S. if you wanna see carters hair look at nikkis journal on my friends list Sail on sailor not sure of the spelling <3 When summer's over will we dream of spring?

It's Been A Summer so Far <3 [20 Jun 2005|02:36pm] Ive been having an alright time this summer ive had better but what can i say...the weathers being a douche bag its cold and hot and cold and hot and i hate that makes me sick I get excited when I get to see Tina <33 she excites me I love hanging out with my Friends<333 they are all soo great makes me happy to have them and Greatful <3 im definitly blessed with some pretty rad people in my life I have a feeling this summer is going to get really great Im excited to see what all goes down... Keep It Real Kids <3 ___ (02) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

[19 Jun 2005|06:17pm] Today sucked major cock balls RAHHHH i hated it im sooooo tired and i feel useless i wanna do something worth doing i hate sitting around i feel like a loser that i definitly am :'( i just wanna do something!! ___ (02) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

[18 Jun 2005|03:09pm] Well since miss jenna never thinks i update and what not this goes out to you <3 hahah Im really starting to miss people </3 like Jenna and Joe and seeing Tina everyday and Nicki and Lindsay and some asshole teachers and talking to Mindi and Tarran in Math and i even miss Courtney haha even though we argued a lot and made fun of each other...I miss dance class with Jenna Gina and Collette :( I miss a lot of people and im sure im forgetting a ton of people :( ^Talk about rockin' the run on sentences haha^ Nothing exciting is happening right now at this point but ill let you know when shit goes down haha **Weekend party comming up soon i hope <3** Keep it Real Kids <3 ___ (01) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

[15 Jun 2005|11:50pm] Soo Nikki and I set up my DVD player and TV out on my deck cause it was too hott to watch TV inside we started watching the green mile...I stopped it cause i wanted to go play some b-ball down at the park We came home to finish the green mile which definitly didnt happen we went to Jimmys and he had a little party for his birthday thne we came home and slept Today we went the "mall"...then we went to Jeffs <3333 GAME i love him soo much hes soo great hahaha i make him nervious but he made it home that was really awesome...then nikki yelled at me cause thats her brother soo i stopped haha Then i came home it was a good day <3 ___ (02) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Sleep away a sudden pain screaming out my name... [12 Jun 2005|08:19pm] I havent updated in months i thought id try it out...Nothing really has been going on been sleeping in a lot because its summer which i dont know about you but it rocks my Gravitational System wooo haha I havent been staying home that often and my parents are pretty much the gayest people in the world...I went to Jimmys and this band from Michigan was spending the night soo i crashed with them for a while, while everyone was off with their companion that was pretty much the sweetest time ever...So far i met a bunch of new people already this summer and its rockin'...Lately my favorite thing to do is to hit on nikkis b/f...hes pretty much the easiest person to hit on...It rules...SuMmEr rocks ***im hoping to have a weekend party like old times if anyone is up for it let me know*** I've pretty much forgotten about everyone at school...and now that i think about it i miss them <3 I think this is the hottest summer of my life!!! which is alright because ive been sleeping on out the deck <333 Well i just woke up and its like 8 PM and im still tired soo i might go crash on the couch or something *****Happiness is a mat that sits on my door way***** ___ (08) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

I dont wanna touch you too much baby </3 [03 Apr 2005|02:40pm] I went to the mall yesterday with my favorite ppl :) We had a lot of fun talkin about hawt cum and hawt soup and hawt showers and the cop thinger man yelled at us cause we were sitting on the couch and not shopping when that wasnt true cause i bought this awesome belt haha woot woot woot <----Three woots haha we also tried on a bunch of awesome clothes ahah cute cute and we ate at Applebees i had to sit in the isle they always pick on the short one :'( tear but it was fun we talked a lot about sex and idk why ahaha i guess were just sex feinds...Well i think im like the last one that needs to get laid hahha Kims waiting for someone special but i dont think sex can be special right away i guess well find out...;) I cant wait till next weekend to hang with my girls again love you guys <3 ___ (04) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

[09 Mar 2005|09:28pm] Hi, my name is Jenny Dunn. I never update because I think I am too cool for that, even though I'm not. My best friend, Nikki, well her wisdom teeth hurt really bad because they are coming in. SOmeone should buy her a baby teething thing =( ktxbi, I love Nikki. ___ (03) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Without you here </3 [29 Jan 2005|09:42pm] Today well today was saturday it was a normal saturday with my friends once again <3 i had fun i had a lot of funn i missed everyone i really did and i didnt realize how much i missed them until we hung out then i realized i missed them more then i thought scott broke my finger with a fly swatter cuase i ball tapped him haha RAHHHH cough then everyone was beating eachother with fly swatters dan printed a picture out of himself cuase well cause hes dan haha probably cause hes hott idk?? I had a lot of fun Scott and Maura made this really gross looking chicken garlic ketchup mustard mayo sandwich and i guess it tasted gross too haha i have no clue then we all got ready and went to Subway and it was really cold but we didnt realize it cuase we were having fun listening to dan sing country songs that he made up aobut haveing sex wtih his cousins and aunts and uncles it was crazy we all slid around on the ice for a while then we went home it was a good time ohhhh yeahhh me nikki maura kelly and aubrey made a movie ___ (02) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

Here I am beside myself again... [25 Jan 2005|07:53pm] Well its almost february you know what that means the month of love the month with all the couples....the month that i dread...haha this month sucks everyone is in love or at least it feels that way you can't walk down the halls of school without seeing someone holding hands...Dance is going better then i thought it would hahaha except my teacher seems to not like me i wonder why? :-\ Ohhh mann ohh well my report card was satisfying to me i was happy i might not be able to keep it up though Biology is getting really confusing and idk what im doing anymore i thought i had it down ohh well, well see how i do I'm bored soo i might look for pictures or something to change my background too but idk ___ (02) When summer's over will we dream of spring?

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